So here we are, the 2nd week into the 2nd trimester, yay! I have been feeling pretty good, just hungry all the time. Literally, I always feel like im starving. This makes me a little nervous because I don't want to get huge, but at the same time I want to make sure this baby is getting all the nutrition it needs. So I have been trying to have healthy snacks. It seems between 1 and dinner time is when I want to eat. I have to bring like 3-4 snacks to work, I usually eat them all and then I'm starving on the way home.
We bought a doppler, such a cool investment. We try not to use it alot, but when we do its so neat to hear that little babies heartbeat, and I can hear when its kicking too, even though I dont feel it quite yet. Usually once I find the baby, it moves away within a second, and I have to search to find the heartbeat again. Its been ranging in the 140's which is perfect.
I lost some weight in the first trimester, but I think I have put on about 2 lbs in a little over a week. I am hoping to keep that to 1 lb a week or less, which is technically normal.
We have about 3 weeks until our ultrasound, and we will know if this baby is Eliana or Judah. Any guesses? I really have no idea! They say your supposed to have mothers intuition, but honestly if I had to guess I would say boy, but only because I know theres a 50% chance I am right.
Sorry I havent posted belly pics, but I cannot find the cord to my camera. Once I do, I will :)
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Thursday, June 11, 2009
14 weeks (and our testimony)
We finally made it to the 2nd trimester! I am starting to feel better, and actually starting to feel pregnant. I still have some morning sickness, but its hit or miss. It feels so good to be past the point where we lost Josiah, and its extremely relieving. This may be a long post as I would like to talk about my appt, and also our testimony this past year.
First, the appt went great! My blood pressure is down, which I know its only a little high because I get so darn nervous. I felt a sense of calm and peace during the appt which was great, I know we had a lot of people praying for us. My midwife asked me lots of questions, and even asked if I have felt movement yet, which I said, if I am, I wouldnt know what it feels like. But she said its still early, and by 16-18 weeks I should be feeling something in there. Then came the awaited heartbeat check....We both felt very calm, even when she didnt find it right away. She went a little lower, and there is was! In the 160's which is perfect. I could listen to that all day long! I looked over at Lance and I could see tears in his eyes, and I started to cry which knocked the doppler right off my belly. Then we got our paperwork for our gender ultrasound, which will be July 10th! I will be 18 weeks and we will finally be able to call this little person by name. Also I am measuring a little bigger then 14 weeks, which makes sense because the baby was measuring almost a week bigger in the 8 week ultrasound.
So on to our story. Last year at this time I was pregnant, getting ready to move, and for my brothers wedding. We were due December 31st. At this point I had heard her little heartbeat many times on a doppler I had rented. I thought everything was going to be fine. After we moved we had our first appt here with our midwife and that is where we found her heart had stopped sometime in the last week. I cant explain the grief we felt. Not only did we loose our baby, but my body would just not let go, so I had a D&C. I struggled with that decision for a long time, like I did something wrong. To make a really long story short, we spent the rest of the summer in grief. We prayed, cried, and prayed some more. I got tests done, the told me my baby was a healthy girl, and they didnt know why this happened. So then my midwife did some blood work, and found a genetic mutation of mthfr. Which essentially doesnt allow your body to absorb folic acid like it should, which can cause high homocysteine levels and blood clots. They thought maybe the placenta had blood clots and that is why the baby died. So I went to a specialist who said since my homocysteine levels are normal, that I do not need to do anything special. However I took it upon myself and with the counsel of my midwife, family, and of course praying about it, we decided to take extra folic acid (4 times the normal amount) and a baby aspirin. We figured it couldnt hurt, but it may help.
We thought we would get pregnant right away, but had to wait 3 months to start trying , because of all the tests. Then about 4 months into trying to concieve, I went to see my OB for a normal checkup. She took some blood because I was having discharge from my breasts and she thought maybe my body was thinking it needed to make milk and my prolactin levels were high. So when we get the results that the prolactin levels were high, she wanted to test again in a couple of weeks to see what they were during another time in my cycle. Well the day before my test, Lance prayed over me, we asked God to regulate my body. I went in for the tests and it was all normal, Praise God!
Another time throughout trying to conceive, Lance annointed my womb with oils and asked for the holy spirit to come and heal anything that may be preventing me from getting pregnant. I felt a warm, tingly sensation right over where my uterus would be, and it lasted for a good 2 hours, at that point I knew God had healed my womb.
The month we got pregnant, I was upset because my periods were so irregular, and I never knew if they would come at 28, 31, or 38 days. So about 14 days into a cycle, Lance prayed over me that God would regulate my cycles, and the next day, I started what I thought was just mid cycle bleeding. It lasted for 5 days and was extremely light. I called my OB and she said even though it came in the middle of your cycle, to count it as a period because it lasted 5 days. So about 15 days from that (I was charting my temps for ovulation) we conceived this little miracle! So that mid cycle bleeding was not a fluke, it was God restoring my body back. 9 months after we lost our little one, we were expecting a new little one!
Its been a long 14 weeks, but here we are. This year feels alot like last year, except with no grief and sadness, only JOY! We moved, we have a wedding to go to, and im pregnant and due in the same month. Only this time God is rewriting our story. He has blessed us so much and we are so greatful for everything he is doing in our lives.
Thank you for all the prayers for us and this baby!
First, the appt went great! My blood pressure is down, which I know its only a little high because I get so darn nervous. I felt a sense of calm and peace during the appt which was great, I know we had a lot of people praying for us. My midwife asked me lots of questions, and even asked if I have felt movement yet, which I said, if I am, I wouldnt know what it feels like. But she said its still early, and by 16-18 weeks I should be feeling something in there. Then came the awaited heartbeat check....We both felt very calm, even when she didnt find it right away. She went a little lower, and there is was! In the 160's which is perfect. I could listen to that all day long! I looked over at Lance and I could see tears in his eyes, and I started to cry which knocked the doppler right off my belly. Then we got our paperwork for our gender ultrasound, which will be July 10th! I will be 18 weeks and we will finally be able to call this little person by name. Also I am measuring a little bigger then 14 weeks, which makes sense because the baby was measuring almost a week bigger in the 8 week ultrasound.
So on to our story. Last year at this time I was pregnant, getting ready to move, and for my brothers wedding. We were due December 31st. At this point I had heard her little heartbeat many times on a doppler I had rented. I thought everything was going to be fine. After we moved we had our first appt here with our midwife and that is where we found her heart had stopped sometime in the last week. I cant explain the grief we felt. Not only did we loose our baby, but my body would just not let go, so I had a D&C. I struggled with that decision for a long time, like I did something wrong. To make a really long story short, we spent the rest of the summer in grief. We prayed, cried, and prayed some more. I got tests done, the told me my baby was a healthy girl, and they didnt know why this happened. So then my midwife did some blood work, and found a genetic mutation of mthfr. Which essentially doesnt allow your body to absorb folic acid like it should, which can cause high homocysteine levels and blood clots. They thought maybe the placenta had blood clots and that is why the baby died. So I went to a specialist who said since my homocysteine levels are normal, that I do not need to do anything special. However I took it upon myself and with the counsel of my midwife, family, and of course praying about it, we decided to take extra folic acid (4 times the normal amount) and a baby aspirin. We figured it couldnt hurt, but it may help.
We thought we would get pregnant right away, but had to wait 3 months to start trying , because of all the tests. Then about 4 months into trying to concieve, I went to see my OB for a normal checkup. She took some blood because I was having discharge from my breasts and she thought maybe my body was thinking it needed to make milk and my prolactin levels were high. So when we get the results that the prolactin levels were high, she wanted to test again in a couple of weeks to see what they were during another time in my cycle. Well the day before my test, Lance prayed over me, we asked God to regulate my body. I went in for the tests and it was all normal, Praise God!
Another time throughout trying to conceive, Lance annointed my womb with oils and asked for the holy spirit to come and heal anything that may be preventing me from getting pregnant. I felt a warm, tingly sensation right over where my uterus would be, and it lasted for a good 2 hours, at that point I knew God had healed my womb.
The month we got pregnant, I was upset because my periods were so irregular, and I never knew if they would come at 28, 31, or 38 days. So about 14 days into a cycle, Lance prayed over me that God would regulate my cycles, and the next day, I started what I thought was just mid cycle bleeding. It lasted for 5 days and was extremely light. I called my OB and she said even though it came in the middle of your cycle, to count it as a period because it lasted 5 days. So about 15 days from that (I was charting my temps for ovulation) we conceived this little miracle! So that mid cycle bleeding was not a fluke, it was God restoring my body back. 9 months after we lost our little one, we were expecting a new little one!
Its been a long 14 weeks, but here we are. This year feels alot like last year, except with no grief and sadness, only JOY! We moved, we have a wedding to go to, and im pregnant and due in the same month. Only this time God is rewriting our story. He has blessed us so much and we are so greatful for everything he is doing in our lives.
Thank you for all the prayers for us and this baby!
Monday, June 8, 2009
13 weeks 5 days
Just a quick update, we have our 14 week appt tomorrow, and are very anxious to hear that heartbeat. Its a different kind of feeling for me, because when we lost Josiah, I had no symptoms that I had miscarried. I was even still feeling pretty sick. Even though I feel in my heart everything will be okay, I still ask myself...what if...so I just ask for prayers for Lance and I, we will be at our appt at 9:30 am tomorrow. Please pray for peace, and a strong healthy heartbeat. I swear this day could not go by any slower!
I will update tomorrow.
I will update tomorrow.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
12 weeks
Finally 12 weeks! This past week at church, my husband asked for prayer so we can be free of fear with this pregnancy, and I know this was a hard thing for him to do. We both felt a release on Sunday when we were being prayed over by our church family. We were told all sorts of amazing things that people heard from God about us. It was an amazing experience, God is so good! I have to say I havent felt any fear since then, even though thoughts will come in my head, but I immediatly recognize they are not from God, and renounce them. I still have some anxiety about just getting to our next appt and hearing that heartbeat, but I no longer am having the thoughts and fears I was having on a regular basis.
So for about a week now I have been throwing up every morning, and once I do, I feel better. Today I didnt though and I am hoping that means it will keep getting better now that I am close to the 2nd trimester. My appetite is still not the greatest but is definitly better. I am still loosing weight, but am not too concerned. I was getting more energy, and then all the sudden, I feel so sleepy again. I sleep 10 hours a night and still feel like a nap. Also my nose is stuffed all the time (which I guess is common). My pants still fit, but are not that comfortable. I am thinking in the next 2 weeks I wont be wearing them anymore.
We are officially moved, and I love the area out here, but it makes getting to work/church a challenge. I have been working 3 hours and have to drive 40 minutes each way. its kind of ridiculous. So I am praying God leads me to another job soon, or finds us that perfect house to buy.
Less then 2 weeks till our next appt, we are so excited to hear the heartbeat!
I will post a belly pic in the next couple of days, we havent taken one yet
So for about a week now I have been throwing up every morning, and once I do, I feel better. Today I didnt though and I am hoping that means it will keep getting better now that I am close to the 2nd trimester. My appetite is still not the greatest but is definitly better. I am still loosing weight, but am not too concerned. I was getting more energy, and then all the sudden, I feel so sleepy again. I sleep 10 hours a night and still feel like a nap. Also my nose is stuffed all the time (which I guess is common). My pants still fit, but are not that comfortable. I am thinking in the next 2 weeks I wont be wearing them anymore.
We are officially moved, and I love the area out here, but it makes getting to work/church a challenge. I have been working 3 hours and have to drive 40 minutes each way. its kind of ridiculous. So I am praying God leads me to another job soon, or finds us that perfect house to buy.
Less then 2 weeks till our next appt, we are so excited to hear the heartbeat!
I will post a belly pic in the next couple of days, we havent taken one yet
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
11 weeks
We are already more then 1/4 of the way to meeting our little one. 5 days away from when we lost our precious Josiah. 31 days away from when we found out about Josiah. 3 weeks away from our next appt where we can hear the heartbeat. Time is flying by.
I feel sort of guilty. I have been wanting to keep a written journal for this pregnancy, like I did with Josiah, but I havent. I also have been wanting to take belly pictures each month, and havent. For some reason I havent allowed myself to feel like this baby is to stay. I have been struggling alot with that lately. Then I realized, every time I doubt this baby, I am deliberately disobeying God. Wow. So from now on all I express is hope and love for this child. I cant control how long this child will be on the earth, but I do know this baby deserves ALL of her parents hope, not just some of it.
So my next post, when im 12 weeks (3 months) I will include our very first belly picture! And will take one every month after that so I can see my belly grow. Also I am going to start a journal. I figure at least I have these blog's that I can print off for now.
I've never been super skinny, but I can no longer suck in my stomach! I have had everyone comment on my belly lol. At first I was like, man I'm not supposed to be showing yet! But hey I love it, and cant wait for it to get bigger :) In a few weeks I will probably be in maternity clothes because A. my pants are getting tight, and B. they are so comfortable! I probably rub, and stare at my belly 20 times a day. Lance is starting to think im crazy, lol. I also started calling the baby "beanie", which is what I used to call Josiah. I didnt even think about it, it just came out of my mouth one day and now its stuck. Who knew a tiny 2 inch human could bring so much love into our lifes? Lance and I are so excited to become parents and love on this child. This baby will be so spoiled :)
I feel sort of guilty. I have been wanting to keep a written journal for this pregnancy, like I did with Josiah, but I havent. I also have been wanting to take belly pictures each month, and havent. For some reason I havent allowed myself to feel like this baby is to stay. I have been struggling alot with that lately. Then I realized, every time I doubt this baby, I am deliberately disobeying God. Wow. So from now on all I express is hope and love for this child. I cant control how long this child will be on the earth, but I do know this baby deserves ALL of her parents hope, not just some of it.
So my next post, when im 12 weeks (3 months) I will include our very first belly picture! And will take one every month after that so I can see my belly grow. Also I am going to start a journal. I figure at least I have these blog's that I can print off for now.
I've never been super skinny, but I can no longer suck in my stomach! I have had everyone comment on my belly lol. At first I was like, man I'm not supposed to be showing yet! But hey I love it, and cant wait for it to get bigger :) In a few weeks I will probably be in maternity clothes because A. my pants are getting tight, and B. they are so comfortable! I probably rub, and stare at my belly 20 times a day. Lance is starting to think im crazy, lol. I also started calling the baby "beanie", which is what I used to call Josiah. I didnt even think about it, it just came out of my mouth one day and now its stuck. Who knew a tiny 2 inch human could bring so much love into our lifes? Lance and I are so excited to become parents and love on this child. This baby will be so spoiled :)
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
10 weeks
We had our 10 week appt, and it went very well. We didnt get to hear the heartbeat (we tried), so we got to see the baby for a minute and they had a strong heartbeat :) The baby looked like a little blob, because the machine was ancient, but we got to see what we were looking for. I lost 4 lbs, but our midwife isnt concerned, but she says im eating enough.
I have been having some pain in my low back/tailbone area. I injured my tailbone many years ago, and I was told it may be aggravated when I am pregnant, and I think its definitly agravated. I feel okay in the morning, but as the day goes on, it can be be pretty painful. I just keep praying, and am planning on seeing a chiropractor soon to see if I can get some relief. I am happy to know the baby is growing though, because its pushing on everything in there!
Other then that, we are moving, soon. We could definitly use any help we can get, as I am not allowed to pick anything up...according to Lance...lol...So we plan on getting some stuff moved this weekend to a storage unit and then the rest as we can throughout the week.
Work has been tough. I have decided if something doesnt change, I will not be there long. There is some stuff going on that makes me sick, and I cant stand to see children treated that way.
So all in all, we are good, healthy baby, and lots of packing to do!
I have been having some pain in my low back/tailbone area. I injured my tailbone many years ago, and I was told it may be aggravated when I am pregnant, and I think its definitly agravated. I feel okay in the morning, but as the day goes on, it can be be pretty painful. I just keep praying, and am planning on seeing a chiropractor soon to see if I can get some relief. I am happy to know the baby is growing though, because its pushing on everything in there!
Other then that, we are moving, soon. We could definitly use any help we can get, as I am not allowed to pick anything up...according to Lance...lol...So we plan on getting some stuff moved this weekend to a storage unit and then the rest as we can throughout the week.
Work has been tough. I have decided if something doesnt change, I will not be there long. There is some stuff going on that makes me sick, and I cant stand to see children treated that way.
So all in all, we are good, healthy baby, and lots of packing to do!
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
9 weeks
So far time is flying by, I am praying the next 3 weeks fly by and I can breathe a sigh of relief.
I have been really emotional lately, and missing our little angel. She would have been 4 months old already. I love this baby in me so much, but Josiah will always be my first baby. I know I will meet her someday, but as her mommy I miss her so much.
I just ask that everyone keeps praying for us in the next few weeks, for peace, and comfort. Its strange, because last time this year, we were getting ready to move, in with his parents, and here we are again, and im pregnant, again. The situation feels the same, but I know its not. This time things will go right. My summer will not be full of grief and depression, it will be of joy and love. We have so much good happening right now, how could something go wrong?
Lance and I are so excited to start this youth group, it is a big passion of ours. We are looking to buy a house this fall, after we complete our housing program, and our real estate agent whom we love is getting approved so she can help us. Our little brother (well Lance's lol) is getting married in July, and we are excited to be able to visit Grand Rapids for that.
Gods timing is perfect, and it feels as if he is rewriting what happened last year. June 25th will be the anniversary of finding out about Josiah, and instead of being depressed we will be celebrating that I am 16 weeks pregnant with this little one. Praise God!
Thank you for all the prayers, and positive thoughts!
I have been really emotional lately, and missing our little angel. She would have been 4 months old already. I love this baby in me so much, but Josiah will always be my first baby. I know I will meet her someday, but as her mommy I miss her so much.
I just ask that everyone keeps praying for us in the next few weeks, for peace, and comfort. Its strange, because last time this year, we were getting ready to move, in with his parents, and here we are again, and im pregnant, again. The situation feels the same, but I know its not. This time things will go right. My summer will not be full of grief and depression, it will be of joy and love. We have so much good happening right now, how could something go wrong?
Lance and I are so excited to start this youth group, it is a big passion of ours. We are looking to buy a house this fall, after we complete our housing program, and our real estate agent whom we love is getting approved so she can help us. Our little brother (well Lance's lol) is getting married in July, and we are excited to be able to visit Grand Rapids for that.
Gods timing is perfect, and it feels as if he is rewriting what happened last year. June 25th will be the anniversary of finding out about Josiah, and instead of being depressed we will be celebrating that I am 16 weeks pregnant with this little one. Praise God!
Thank you for all the prayers, and positive thoughts!
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