6 weeks old

Judah is 6 weeks old today! He has been social smiling since 3 weeks, and is a really strong baby. (its all those prayers and extra vitamins I took!) He is such a happy little guy, but is having some tummy issues because of the med's he is on for thrush. Which by the way is so annoying and hard to get rid of. It would be easier if he didn't like his binky so much, but he LOVES it. So we do alot of sanitizing around here to keep them clean and are going to buy him some new ones this week and maybe again the next week. (big pain in the butt) Not to mention the thrush hurts me too and makes nursing a little uncomfortable :(

As of 5 weeks he is 12lbs 12oz, hes my little chunker! I love that hes gaining weight well, I don't have to worry if he misses a feeding! He is in 3 month clothing, and it fits him well. He sleeps a 5 hour stretch and then a 4 hour stretch at night which is awesome to get more then 2 hours of sleep at a time. Then he usually ends up in bed with mom and dad for a little bit (if he goes back to sleep) I can honestly say I feel like I am made to be a mommy. Of course most women are, but I truly feel like being home with Judah is just so important for him and for me. Not to mention its much easier to get stuff done around the place, and have meals planned, and lunches for Lance. I would like to make some income babysitting here and there, but I know home is where I need to be ultimately, and we are willing to make the neccesary adjustments so I can be.

Yes HOME! We finally have our own little place. We know this is where God wants us, we prayed for a home in our price range, with a garage and a basement, and we didn't even have to look for this place, it literally just showed up! God is awesome :) Our landlords are awesome too, so that definitly helps!

As for me, I feel like I am finally healing up, and have been doing little workouts here and there to tone up. I have a mommy and baby workout tape which is so cheesy but its cute. I also have the wiifit plus I am using, and once it warms up we will be going for walks alot.

Time to go for now, Mr. Judah bug is waking up :)

To my precious Josiah

Dear sweet Josiah,

Its been 1 year since your due date, and I've been really thinking about you lately. I wanted to tell you about your brother. His name is Judah, and he was born 11 days before your due date. I look at him and wonder what features he has, that you would have. He is beautiful, so I can imagine you would have been a beautiful baby. He already has such a personality and his smile melts my heart. I wish I could have seen your smile.

You would be 1 year old, and getting into everything. Mommy would be very busy! Even though I didn't get to hold you and kiss your beautiful face, I felt an amazing connection with you. You were our first little one, created with love. You are so special to us and we know we will meet you one day. But until then we have Judah and your future brothers/sisters to hold on tight to, and when we look at them we will remember the sweet little one who was gone too soon.

We recorded your beautiful heartbeat to always remember you.

1 month old

1 month ago today I was in active labor, in the most pain I have ever been in. But as I look at my sweet baby, I can't even remember the pain. God made us so amazing, that all we remember is the wonderful aspects of labor and delivery.

Judah has changed our life. He amazes me every day. I know every parent says this, but we have been incredibly blessed with a good baby. God gave me a word that he would be strong willed and he is. I have never seen a 1 month old who fights sleep the way he does. He is so alert and smiling more and more each day. He has been "talking" to us too. He loves his "mommy's milk" and also loves his binky. He went from 9lbs 40z at birth, to 11lbs. 8 oz at 3 weeks 5 days.

As much as I miss sleeping more then 2-4 hours at a time, I love getting up with him. Most of the time I feed him laying down and we go right back to sleep. He sleeps with us and in his crib, but seems to need to be swaddled to sleep a long time in his crib. He loves to be close to us, and I love waking up to his sweet face. We have been using cloth diapers and they are great! They make him look like he has a big butt though!

I am trying to enjoy every minute because I know he is growing fast and I love this cuddly stage, and want to take advantage of it. I truly have never felt the amount of love I feel for Judah, and how I want to protect him from everything I can. Its such a strong feeling and brings me to tears.

I miss being pregnant, and can't wait to experience this again, but I want Judah to have the time as our little baby, and get all the love and attention he needs and deserves. Hes such a blessing and we know God has great things in store for our little Judah bug!